For we walk by faith, not by sight. 2 Corinthians 5:7 (NKJV)
The monitor wouldn’t turn on. Lilly went to bed with a fever, and I wanted to check on her before I went to sleep. In fact, I woke up many times last night feeling the need to check on her. She’s the type of kid that wakes up when I go into her room in the middle of the night, so the video monitor that allows me to spy without actually entering has always been my saving grace.
Thinking that maybe it just needed to charge, I plugged the monitor in and went to sleep. At 1:00 am I woke up and could not get it to turn on. Past experiences told me not to wake the sleeping bear in the bed beside me and ask for technological help. As anxiety crept in, God put this verse on my lips: We walk by faith, not by sight.
It was like He was saying, I will take care of her. Trust Me.
In the back of my mind, there were restless thoughts looming. I was thinking about the blood test results we were still waiting on. Lilly's white blood cell count showed up slightly lower than normal at her two year check-up this summer. The results were consistent with the test she had at nine months old. The doctor suggested we check her this month, and perhaps consult a specialist if there is no change. Though she assured me not to worry, I was starting to wonder if those results had anything to do with the fever she’d had the past two days.
I so badly wanted to see her on that tiny monitor screen. If I could see her and know that she was alright, I felt in control. The Momma in me was convinced I could protect her from illness. But I can’t. Only God can. And in my heart, I know that God wants me to have faith in the unseen. He wants me to walk in faith that my baby girl is in His hands, even when I can’t see what lies ahead.
We were referred to a hematologist this week after Lilly's blood work remained consistent with her other tests. I was told on Tuesday afternoon that it could take a while to get in to see the specialist. We asked God that this would not be the case, and that we could get in quickly to see a doctor.
On Wednesday morning, the nurse for the hematologist called and said they could get us in to see the doctor in Friday! Shocked, I said, "You mean, like, in two days?"
God is good!
For the past two days, we've been praying that God would give us an answer (as rare as that is when you go to see a specialist), and that we would not have to make any return appointments to have this checked again. This morning we found out that Lilly is healthy, and the doctor is not concerned with the numbers since there has been no other indication of anything abnormal. He said not to even worry with checking it again, and did not even draw her blood this morning!
God is good!
My mom has been waiting on results through all this as well. She had a repeat mammogram a few weeks ago and was called back for a biopsy. We found out Wednesday afternoon that there is no cancer! Praise Jesus!
God is good!
Thank you for each one of your prayers.... they mean so much to us!
I will sing to the LORD, for he has been good to me. Psalm 13:6 (NIV)