Thursday, December 19, 2013

Unwrapped



I’m sitting here wondering how to start this thing, but then in the silence I hear it, Shalom.

It means Peace to you, and it is the heartbeat of God’s message found in the pages of Luke chapter 2.  Shalom was spoken of long before that December night we celebrate, from the prophet Isaiah and Micah, and shalom was on the hearts of the people of Israel that cried out to God.

For to us a child is born, to us a son is given, and the government will be on his shoulders. And he will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace. 

Isaiah 9:6 (Emphasis added)


But you, Bethlehem Ephrathah, though you are small among the clans of Judah, out of you will come for me one who will be ruler over Israel, whose origins are from of old, from ancient times.  And he will be our peace.

Micah 5:2, 5 (Emphasis added)

But what is peace? What do I do with a word like shalom- a short, two-syllable word that is both a greeting and also a farewell? Why do I keep running straight into it and where do I put it? How do I wrap up peace this Christmas season?

Peace is not what I’d use to categorize this story of a baby coming before the wedding, tarnished reputations and questions- so many questions.  I can’t quite get past the donkey ride in the cold night leading far away from home and night-shift shepherds (who were complete strangers) throwing a holy baby shower and kings on camels traveling for years from a distant land to give gifts to a newborn who was a king. 

Unexpected, yes.  Peaceful, hardly.  But this is a story full of peace.  Full of peace.  Not pieces of peace here and there, last minute attempts to adorn this fascinating story of long ago.  Full of peace.  Peace spilling right off the pages into our lives. Shalom.

While they were there, the time came for the baby to be born, and she gave birth to her firstborn, a son. She wrapped him in cloths and placed him in a manger, because there was no guest room available for them.

Luke 2:6-7

The birth of the Messiah was predicted, but who would have guessed it would happen like this?  Who would recognize it and who would miss it, because I’m not sure I’d be looking for a king there either?  They were all waiting for this moment, but they weren’t expecting this and who would have scripted it this way- there in that tiny town with a stable and animals and no room and a baby in a manger?

I remember the Christmas gifts wrapped in red and white, green bows sparkling under twinkling lights just feet from where I sit. I think of what’s inside those bundled packages.  I think of how many times a day the kids ask me if it’s time yet for Jesus to unwrap His gifts since it’s His birthday.

Mary wrapped her precious baby boy in strips of linen, and she laid Him where animals had slopped down dinner.  And as she laid Him there, I can almost hear her saying, “Really, God?  Here?”  The stable was more like a cave than the rustic, vintage barn that always meanders its way into my imagination.  The Savior of the world was born in a cave, a hole cut into the side of a massive rock- cold and dark and so unexpected.  Yet, this was God’s picture of peace.

Angels gave their birth announcement in thundering song.  “Glory to God in the highest heaven, and on earth peace to those on whom his favor rests.”  Peace to you.  Shalom.


When Mary laid her baby in a dirty, dingy cave, it wouldn’t be the last time. Once more, years later, Jesus’ body would be wrapped in linen and once more.  The unexpectedness of it all would cause ripples of questions and waves crashing down around shaky faith.

Now there was a man named Joseph, a member of the Council, a good and upright man, who had not consented to their decision and action. He came from the Judean town of Arimathea, and he himself was waiting for the kingdom of God.  Going to Pilate, he asked for Jesus’ body. Then he took it down, wrapped it in linen cloth and placed it in a tomb cut in the rock, one in which no one had yet been laid.

Luke 23:50-54

And that’s when this thought comes tumbling into my heart, unexpected.  Peace is God with us not life without pain.  Jesus, Emmanuel, came to live with us, and He came to die for us.  He lived to die.  He was born to live with us, and He lived with us to die for us.  Peace is knowing who wins, not getting excused from the battle.

He is with us.
He is for us.

Completeness is at the core of shalom.  It means whole, and as I read this story with fresh eyes I see Peace in a brand new light.  I can’t escape the thought of it when I read this in Jesus Calling on the same day, and I know I am on the verge of something that’s always been there- familiar, yet still unexpected- and I cannot stop searching, and I don’t even know what it is I am after, but it’s there, so I keep on.

“Focus on Me- Emmanuel- and let my living Presence envelop you in Peace.”

I read it three times just to give it time to sink down, down to the places where my dreams lie waiting and my fears crouch low, the places where memories billow up, some on cue and some uninvited. This word ‘envelop’ grabs me and I put down my pen, look up its meaning, wondering why it has such a hold on me.  It reminds me of Jesus wrapped in cloths, but the picture is different in my mind.  Unexpected.  It is surrounding me- His Presence, this Peace.  

It’s not contained in the manger or in the tomb or in any cave of life.  It’s living.  His Presence is living- alive and free. And being alive means active, full.  Full of peace. And there is quality, vitality, and reality here. 

I realize why this word ‘envelop’ has captured me so.  Right there in the long list of synonyms, staring back at me without blinking are these two: ‘swaddle’ and ‘swathe.’  I’ve already read about these words- which both boil right down to ‘wrap’- so I know that they might as well be the same word.  One is used of binding an infant, the other of bandaging a wound. 

I grab my pen once more and I’m writing questions, mind reeling faster than hand. 

The linen was wrapped around your body which was broken for me.  Your Presence is surrounding my brokenness, and it’s what makes me whole.  Could it be that this manger scene was given to display what Your Presence does for me?

I dig deeper and stay close, because there’s more, and now I’m hunting for it.

As Mary’s heart split, deep with fracture, she watched them lay her boy in that cave.  He was dead.  Her heart was crushed. She would have remembered the last time her boy was wrapped with strips of linen, shepherds gathered round in that small enclosed space.  Here again.  Staring into a cave at a perfect plan that seemed to have gone terribly wrong. 

I have stared into my own cave and wondered, too.  Here again, God?  Really?  Why this cave? Why here?  Why now?  Why me?

God the Father knew this moment would come, an assault against the hearts of those who loved Jesus and lived with Him, shattering their expectations one by one.  He knew the questions would follow, but more than that, He knew that this was scripted.  It was written this way on purpose.  This is not a story gone wrong.  This story has no errors.  My story has no errors.  Neither does yours.

All who loved Jesus, including Mary, watched the slow, circular roll of that tomb stone, steady arms guiding the way until it halted to a standstill in front of the entrance. Death sealed up, shut up, finished. The Father knew this moment would come and that three days later an earthquake would erupt, the splitting open wide of God’s heart where Love and Redemption and Mercy and Grace were poured out all around.  The final payment.  The debt dismissed. The stone rolled away and a risen savior. 

This moment would be unexpected as well, and this moment would forever change everything. 

Forever.

The stone wasn’t the only thing moved by the magnitude of His love.  All of creation, all of time, all of heaven and all of earth were moved in that moment.  And that moment brings to mind the beginning, the part that, on the surface, seems to be a mistake, an oversight, a badly scripted plan.  And yet, seeing the whole of it, my breath catches, and I have to remember to exhale. 

Shalom.

Jesus, tiny and frail, bundled with swaddling strips for comfort and warmth, eyes peering up into the dark of a cave.  This couldn’t have been God’s plan.  Why here?  Why a cave? Only one explanation is given to gather meaning: “Because there was no room at the inn.” 

Because there was no room at the inn.  So much is crammed into this statement spilling over with disappointment.  Because they were miles away from home, it was terribly inconvenient.
Because they were forced to travel here when a baby would be coming any day, it was the worst possible time. Because no one saw a thing wrong with sending a pregnant woman away to the animals’ shelter, it was so incredibly uncomfortable.  Because they had nowhere else to go, it seemed hopeless.

As my pen scratches out one after another, I see it. The only reason that sweeps my face into wide smile, relaxes the grimace I have felt as I list them out one by one, as ink smears across the page: Because it was always God’s plan, she wrapped him in cloths and placed him in a manger.

What sounds like a story gone wrong, sliding wildly, recklessly off the tracks, is God’s perfectly scripted salvation story brimming with love and sacrifice.  When Mary laid her baby in that manger, with strips of cloth wrapped around His small frame, God knew.

The Father knew.

He knew that the beginning would mirror the ending.  He knew the rest, what was coming, unfolding.  Jesus was born to die.  And there is peace in this perfect plan. He is Peace, and His Presence envelops me.  I read this from Isaiah, and it’s one I know well, because I have been here before on this search for peace. These words reveal the way to perfect peace- shalom shalom. 

You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast, because they trust in you.  

Isaiah 26:3

My mind plays a part in this, because it has to do with where my thoughts rest and Who it is I lean against.  There’s a wrangling of my thoughts- the ones that run wild and divert my gaze from Christ.  It’s bringing them back to Him, lining them up with His promises.  I am tempted to focus my mind on the cave that’s dark and cold and no place for a king; I struggle to get past the dirty manger that I would have never picked for this story.  I focus too hard on those people who let Mary give birth out there in the cold. 

But when I let all of that fall away, I see Jesus, and suddenly I am in the place where Peace is found. I see that Peace was right there in the middle of disappointment.  Peace was right there among the pain and the hurt, standing smack-dab in front of judgment that was passed.  And when I discover this path to peace, the God of Peace Himself promises to keep me there in that place of shalom shalom.


The tomb that held Jesus’ body after my sins nailed Him to the cross was not any more a backup plan than the cave or the manger in Bethlehem.  This place where God’s finale rang out in the heavens was also carefully and lovingly determined.  It was here that all of time and all of creation reached a glorious crescendo.

At the place where Jesus was crucified, there was a garden, and in the garden a new tomb, in which no one had ever been laid.

John 19:41

The tomb was in a garden.  The dark cave of death was inside a garden. This was the plan. Life envelops death.  Peace surrounds brokenness. 

When sin entered the Garden of Eden, creation was instantly a broken world in desperate need of a savior.  Sin entered the garden, but then so did Jesus.  When He entered this garden, sin and death were defeated forever and everything that sin had us wrapped up in- bound in- has now been reversed. There is life in Jesus- eternal life- and communion with God.  Peace with God once again.  The Father picked a garden, a place full of life and beauty and the very creation that imitates His character.

The placement of those strips of cloth is fresh in my mind: “The cloth was still lying in its place, separate from the linen.”  (John 20:7) Another question comes quick on the heels of this: What becomes of the linen cloths now that You have conquered darkness, the whole of sin and the depths of death itself?

I realize it isn’t as much about what is wrapped as Who is doing the unwrapping.  The reversal of sin and death is in each strip cast aside.  The removal of death’s curse and sin’s grip sets us free, and that is why those cloths lay there folded, unneeded.  It is finished.

The broken relationship has now been restored, and we are no longer God’s enemies.  Shalom.  He is with us.  He is for us. Though the battle rages on, there is Peace.  Peace dwells among us and reminds us that the Victor is on our side. Shalom.

God initiated this holy conversation in a single word: Shalom. When Jesus left to prepare a place for us, He knew He’d be returning.  So until then, He left His Peace, His Presence, here with us.  

Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.

John 14:27

I think of all the things in my life that God has brought full circle, and I wonder…  How would I live if I knew the rest?  Would that be enough?  Would seeing the end make the unexpected any easier? 

It doesn’t take me long to realize that even with an understanding of the ending, beautifully wrapped and explained and healed with strips of His love and grace bound tightly around my soul, I would still struggle with the unexpected parts.  I would still have to search and pursue this peace that comes only from knowing Jesus.

Shalom is not the end of the conversation; it’s the beginning, the flinging open wide the door to constant communion with the Father who loved us so incredibly deeply that He wrote this story for us. 

My mind drifts back to the little voices that trail behind me, following me as if I know the way.  Their questions, full of curiosity and wonder, make me realize that they are searching, too. When they ask me if it's time yet for Jesus to unwrap His presents, I can tell them that He already has.  He already has.  Gathering them real close like I do when I want them to listen, I will tell them the good news that Jesus has already unwrapped His Presence, and He is here with us.  


Shalom. 

Peace to you.




Friday, November 8, 2013

Believing There's More To the Story


Have you ever followed Jesus wholeheartedly into something that made no sense at all?   
A job?  A relationship?  A decision?  Or even a physical place?

Me, too.

Have you ever wondered why He led you there?  Have you ever questioned what exactly He was up to?

Yeah, I have, too.

When Jesus asks us to follow Him, it isn’t an invitation to the easy road.  Sometimes, He invites us into a really hard situation or set of circumstances.  And it makes no sense at all. Or at least that's how it seems...

I am sure that Jesus’ followers faced the same thing when they gave up everything to follow him and it seemed like all that road led to was the wrongful arrest and brutal murder of their beloved Teacher.  I bet they wondered why he led them to the foot of the cross only to watch him die.  It made no sense to them.  
And if the story ended there, it would make no sense to me either.  But Jesus’ death was just the beginning of the greatest story ever told.  A true story.  A story of redemption and life and freedom.  A story about love.

Three days after Jesus’ death, when the news was reported that the stone in front of his tomb had been rolled away, Peter and John went to see for themselves. They didn’t walk or leisurely stroll or talk about their suspicions on the way.  They ran.  The bible says that John outran Peter.  He was faster or maybe more desperate for answers- I don’t know.  But it was Peter who had the courage to enter the tomb first.

Luke gives his account of Peter’s reaction to seeing the empty tomb and the neatly folded linens that were wrapped around Jesus’ dead body.

Bending over, [Peter] saw the strips of linen lying by themselves, and he went away, wondering to himself what had happened.  Luke 24:11

John writes his own personal testimony of that moment.

Finally the other disciple, who had reached the tomb first, also went inside. He saw and believed.   John 20:8

The very next verse tells us that they still did not understand from Scripture that Jesus had to rise from the dead.  It wasn’t that they just didn’t get it; it was that their minds had not yet been opened to understanding by Jesus himself.  In the wake of their biggest disappointment, these two men reacted differently to something they were not able to comprehend.   

Peter wondered.  

John believed. 

If I’m honest, I’m more like Peter.  I like to mull things over and over and over until my brain feels more jumbled up than when I started.  I often toss ideas back and forth until I’m exhausted or frustrated, unwilling to just accept that there are parts of the story that God has chosen to keep hidden from me.  If Peter wasn’t tired from running to catch up with John, his thoughts were sure to tire him out soon enough.

John believed before he understood.  John believed before he saw how the puzzle pieces fit together.  John made a choice to believe that something awesome and incredible and amazing had happened, even if he didn’t get it completely.  

I want to be like this.  I want to make the choice to believe that God is at work and that Jesus wouldn’t have led me here if He didn’t have a bigger plan that fit into a bigger story- a true story that has a perfect ending. 

When Jesus- risen and very much alive- met the disciples, Peter and John were there.  They touched his nail scarred hands and looked with their own eyes at his feet and his side.  Jesus connected some of the dots that day and then he opened their minds so they could understand completely.

John was the only one of the bunch that believed before he was truly capable of understanding.  I wonder if it had anything to do with his level of trust in Jesus.  In his eye-witness account of all that took place, he refers to himself over and over again as “the disciple whom Jesus loved.”  He knew that Jesus loved him and had no doubt about that.   

I used to think that John was pretty arrogant to go around telling everyone that he was the one Jesus loved.  But he wasn’t saying he was the only one Jesus loved; in fact, we could all go by that nickname- “one whom Jesus loves.”  John just had the guts to say it.  And I am sure that his choice to believe was born out of the deep love he found in Jesus.  His understanding of Jesus’ love for him was all that was needed to believe there was more to the story.  



And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.  Ephesians 3:17-19